Isabella, 17, Singapore.
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Have you ever been lost in your life?

Have you been such a let down to your parents that, even though they don't express it or mean it, you just feel so hopeless, so useless and like there is no reason for you to continue living?

Have you ever felt so upset that your tears start to roll down your cheeks in the middle of the road, where everyone is looking, where people can clearly see you crying?

Have you felt so helpless that nothing anyone says, or your best friends say, or how much comfort food you eat, or how many of your favourite things you buy don't seem to make you feel better?

Hi. Welcome to my life as of today.

My parents seem to have lost hope in me.

I failed both my bio and chem promo papers.

I'm gonna need to explain why I didn't do well again.

And this time, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna cry in front of my teachers.

And the worst thing is,

I don't know what the freaking hell went wrong.

I don't want to live anymore.

I can't survive in my own school; and I can't take it.

Everyone's doing better than me. EVERYONE.

I've never been so afraid to go to school.

I just want to drop everything I have now and just stop all these.

Why are these happening?

Why am I such a failure?

Why can't I do anything right?

Why can't I be like those people who are born smart, born pretty, born lucky, born rich, born worry-free?

Why can't I...

















My parents said that they are glad I'm not demoralised because I told them I know for sure I can be promoted to JC2.

















Well, they are wrong.

















And I'm not gonna tell them everything from now on.

Sometimes we need to tell white lies.

I've completely lost hope.

















All hope.

















I am the bane of my own existence.

















I don't belong here.

Isabella Mak, famously known as Lala.
Singapore
17 Years Old
31 March 1994
Methodist Girls' School
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Interests: Fashion, Design (Web, Graphic and Fashion), Beauty and Music.

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Have you ever been lost in your life?

Have you been such a let down to your parents that, even though they don't express it or mean it, you just feel so hopeless, so useless and like there is no reason for you to continue living?

Have you ever felt so upset that your tears start to roll down your cheeks in the middle of the road, where everyone is looking, where people can clearly see you crying?

Have you felt so helpless that nothing anyone says, or your best friends say, or how much comfort food you eat, or how many of your favourite things you buy don't seem to make you feel better?

Hi. Welcome to my life as of today.

My parents seem to have lost hope in me.

I failed both my bio and chem promo papers.

I'm gonna need to explain why I didn't do well again.

And this time, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna cry in front of my teachers.

And the worst thing is,

I don't know what the freaking hell went wrong.

I don't want to live anymore.

I can't survive in my own school; and I can't take it.

Everyone's doing better than me. EVERYONE.

I've never been so afraid to go to school.

I just want to drop everything I have now and just stop all these.

Why are these happening?

Why am I such a failure?

Why can't I do anything right?

Why can't I be like those people who are born smart, born pretty, born lucky, born rich, born worry-free?

Why can't I...

















My parents said that they are glad I'm not demoralised because I told them I know for sure I can be promoted to JC2.

















Well, they are wrong.

















And I'm not gonna tell them everything from now on.

Sometimes we need to tell white lies.

I've completely lost hope.

















All hope.

















I am the bane of my own existence.

















I don't belong here.

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-Isabella.